How to Deny

How to Deny

I’ve been loving you through a locked door without the turn of a key…

How can this be?

I deadbolted my love at the door

For what’s meant for me…

Securing every door to my temple with a vow of celibacy,

For the only woman holding the golden skeleton key…

Yet, you aren’t available to enter my botanical,

Too far away to grow with fate, kismet stuck at the gate…

Lions and hyenas preying on me,

Dreams chasing me,

I don’t want to be a burglar,

How did my soul travel past the alarm of what’s taken…

Intermittent knocks confuses the portals of my soul,

Contemplating if this truly exist,

Then I feel you between highly secured mechanisms,

Wondering if I allow your entry

Will I face the chains of embarrassment…

Other women knocking,

The sounds of the doorbell I’m blocking…

I would leave the door open if clarity ring

I would leave the door open if you could love me how it’s suppose to be…

I would fly above the Appalachian to land a ride of your emotional roller coaster…

Maybe I just have to settle between these walls like you…fear of loneliness,

Opening the back door letting the woman that’s available come through…

Taking me back in time when Ms. Jackson was Nasty,

I don’t want to be her, stuck in Pleasure Principle,

I want “making love in the rain”, when Damita Jo sings…

It’s getting harder waiting,

Your energy is so powerful, but your love can’t save me…

How can I deny what’s chasing me in my sleep,

Why are you holding the one and only key…?

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Written by Shana A. ©️

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